Do you love yourself?

i say yes,

breaking the promise to my parents that
i would never lie till
the day the sun sets forever and
the oceans run plain of water, i
will stay truthful; and
i have failed by saying
i love myself

how can i love myself?

when the rolls on my stomach flare and
my skin hangs loose i
fight for my life to put
up a smile, but

they don’t know i look at myself
and think,
if only i could change

when I see the score on my paper, lethargy
beat me again; i
say it’s okay, next
time will be better but

they don’t know i look at myself
and think,
if only i could change

when it’s raining and dull and
everyone is down, i
feel alive a bolt in me that
they too understand sadness because

they don’t know i look at myself
and think,
if only i could change