I read a grief tip today
learn to embrace the
and
I can hold two truths at the same time
and
this is 100% me
I miss you so much
and
you are everywhere
I am struggling to accept that you’re gone
and
I’m flattened by the depth of the pain at your being gone
I am wanting to talk about you
and
no one mentions your name
I am seeking company
and
at the same time I’m frustrated that the company is not you
I am starving
and
nothing can fill the aching void that you left
I want distraction and something else to do or think about
and
you are a magnet pulling my thoughts back to you
I try to write to process it all
and
I have a hard time letting it go
I want to watch our favorite shows
and
every character sounds like you
I want to be finished with this grieving, this pain
and
the depth of the grief, the pain is equal to the depth of our love
I paint to try to ease the load
and
grief waits at the doorway for after the brushes are washed
I try to fill the days so time passes
and
the days are endless without you
