once upon a time
a child undeserved
of suffering now
looks at the record of
hostility, pyrrhic victories,
searches for causalities,
of origin and in this more
massive sphere, finding
nothing of heaven, only
human body, an amalgam,
sacs bustling with
cytoplasm holding irresistible
forces of biology, its
demands, you think
I can pick and choose
what applies,
this empirical nose, this ear,
this personality and character
these wormy apples
for your basket,
encoded and correct,
as if there were nothing in
the nucleus, nothing you want
delicately to perfect,
as if there were nothing
without annihilating it all.