letting go
takes less energy
than holding on
in the moment
yet somehow
it is infinitely harder
this letting go
for in order to let go
I need to absorb the reality of your
impending death
and my heart screams
to the four corners of the universe
a resounding no
not yet
not now
not ever
selfishly
I want more time
with your good heart
but knowing you are in pain
I must do my utmost to pray for peace for you
for us all
and in that prayer
lies the shimmering beauty
of the letting go