what I wouldn’t give
for more time with you
here, now
I am sad and lonely
now you’ve gone
my heart in pieces
but
one day at a time
I am mending myself together, again
and each day
it hurts a fraction of a hair’s width less
to touch the bruise of grief
but
and there’s always a but
isn’t there
in the end
I got my happy ending
after all
for there was love
between us all along
up till the last day, even now
and I
loved harder
than I knew was possible
and you
loved me into being
the me that was there all along
free
brave
whole
you saw her
and loved her and
held her up for the world to see
and although
I thought I had lost her when you left
she’s still here
and the me that I became
through you, alongside you
will help me through this grief
I just needed
to remember she was here
all along
part of the beauty of our love story
is that it will live on in me
because I choose this happy ending
I suppose this is
what the edges of healing
must taste like
